During the years when I studied and worked as a stylist and costume designer, I learned all the rules that we can break together today. It appears that women have more options for choice in fashion as compensation for all those who are precluded from the world. My work aims to break this illusion and the cage of false representations of the male / female, regaining possession of everything that is not considered desirable because it is funny, clumsy, grotesque or monstrous. We were taught to aim to be perfect, together we can reject all the standards of beauty that we will never be good enough for.

To take a step towards the queer in fashion is not only to include new kinds of bodies and needs in the constitution of the imagination, but to find new places from which to start imagining oneself again. Post-porn has given me the tools to introduce new aesthetics and desires into my work, at the same time the experience of trauma has become a new place from which to start creating. I come from trauma, I create from trauma. Following the death of my mother, my grandmother became first of all muse and model for me and then partner for the Vodka & Tena Lady project, an artistic experience in which care is detached from senses of guilt and duty, and returned to the practice of acceptance, exchange and the development of non-heteronormative affections, while at the same time, other imaginaries related to fetishism and eroticism are performed in an irreverent and grotesque way.

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I learned from these experiences that trauma makes us flexible and adaptable, to the point that we may run the risk of adapting to and remaining within the trauma itself. The alternative to remaining is to resist and transform that experience through our creativity, without denying or invisibilizing it at all. The construction of emotionally reliable networks and queer somersaults while creating bodies and image is now part of my artistic and existential research.